nothing more than ordinary

I am the queen of making stupid ugly faces. I so need to get my hair trimmed already. Ahmad how?!

Anyone wanna join Amazing Race Asia with me? I can't drive (at least not yet) though. :(

Fun happy times with the homeboys at Holland. After I overslept on bus number 7 and ended up at Clementi. Raining like fuck and hence, no work done today. Skies were just too damn gloomy and the ramps and everything else were wetwetwet. Met Amaka there and he got bored and left with his friend.

Don't think I'll be heading down to Rivermaya. Will have to take the shots on Sunday and see who got through. It'll be nice to talk to the guys again and ask them how it was like competing in Singapore and what with all the chaotic weather conditions as well.

Mmm. Corey Bohan is so cute. Sigh. Have put back on the weight I've lost. Need to lose the excess (all of em' around the tummy, arms and thighs) and leave the wobbly bits in the right places. ;) Haha! So nonsense. Have paid off my Singtel bills. Brooding over the Starhub one. Sigh. I need to cut down on sms-ing. JUST CALL ME LA NEXT TIME!

I need a side job. I need side income. What can I do? What can I do?

it was me who took it, not the others

1. I conducted a social experiment and asked a barrista for his MSN address. Now he thinks that my little sister likes him and I got the address for her. HAHAH! Ok I'M SORRY BUT NOT REALLY I DID THINK IT WAS FUN AND FUNNY! And you admitted to, that he had a really sweet smile. HAH!

2. Oh. My. Gawd. Super cute hot boys. BMX tomorrow. MORE TO COME! Also, Dave Mirra is just fucking awesome.



3. I love hanging out with my favourite girls. :D





















So yes. Need to shower. Need to sleep. Work tomorrow again. Gonna head home early after that so I can rest on Sunday. Swim, tan, gig, work, gig. YEAH!

And have I mentioned that Desperate Housewives is really funny?

weird ass dreams upon waking

Tired and lazy to go to work. BUT at least I had enough sleep. Somewhat. I think Desperate Housewives is damn funny la. Least its better than LOST. Ok. I'm hungry and I'm already gonna be superduperfucking late for work. Therefore, CIAO!

You know, maybe for the sheeeeeer heck of it, I'll drop Jon a message. Maybe. MARCUSTUNG PLEASE GO AND STUDY!

Ok fuck la. BMX riders await. Better call the babe and tell her I'm gonna be late. Damn!

you know i'm no good

I'm cranky and fucking tired but today I got to meet Josh Harrington, Corey Bohan, Ryan Nyquist, Jay Miron and Alistair Whitton. Corey, is damn fucking cute. Haha. Gonna catch them practice tomorrow and take shots.

I functioned on chicken rice, Redbull, cigarettes and coffee. Now I need to crash because I'll die if I don't have anymore sleep. Work tomorrow, gotta be there by 1130. And yes, have a good Friday ya'all.

Stupid me. I deleted the CORRECT picture. Fucked up. Oh well. Tomorrow la. Tomorrow.

Ps. i believe in horoscopes, and so should you.. TIP no1: If your aries, and your significant other happens to be cancer and vice versa.. Take a knife, and stab your self.. be sure to hit vital organs so you die less painfully.

Rrrrrrright.

Amy Winehouse ain't that bad.

a part of me that died and i forgot

When I still lived in Pandan, my dad would bring me to the reservoir for a jog. Either that or we'd just sit down and I'd play with the rocks. My imagination was wild, some looked like dinosaurs and the sand was pretty to draw pictures in.

We moved away. I grew up. But from time to time I pass by the reservoir on my way to Jurong and I remember childhood. That, was innocence.

I miss the little tomboyish girl who ran, chasing imaginary kites. I miss the sound of the water crashing against the rocks and seeing dead fish, cringing my face, floating at the edges of the water. I remember the morning glories, shut, in the evening. I miss the breeze of the wind when we ran.

I wish I had more memories of her to keep. When the rest of the world spins too fast for me to be kept in reach.

METRO BMX JAM 2007

Because at 10 in the morning, I am fucking stoned. I'm sorry, I had to have Redbull. If not, I die.

A: Loves to flirt
B: Loves people
C: Best smile
D: Has one of the best personalities ever
E: Freaking beautiful
F: People wild and crazy adore you
G: Never let people tell you what to do
H: Likes to act crazy as hell
I: Loves to laugh
J: Freaking Rowdy
K: Really silly.
L: Really easy to fall in love with
M: Makes dating fun
N: Good at sex
O: Loved by everyone
P: Popular with all types of people
Q: A hypocrite.
R: Freak in bed
S: Easy to fall in love with
T: very attractive
U: Gets hugs
V: Not judgmental
W: Very broad minded
X: Never let people tell you what to do
Y: Great kisser
Z: Lives life for fun

So let's see.

L: Really easy to fall in love with
I: Loves to laugh
N: Good at sex
D: Has one of the best personalities ever
A: Loves to flirt

The sheer irony. Anyway, if anyone wants to buy a Black Nintendo DS Lite with FF3, then just click on that link. My shoulders hurt for some strange obscure reason and I know last night I was talking gibberish. Which was good in a brain-purging kinda way.



Anyone interested in catching this? It's free. This weekend, at the Somerset Skate Park. I'll be there. And even if I wasn't, I'd definitely want to be there. But damn, it seriously clashes with Rivermaya. How? I want to catch both.

Tired and stoned. Gonna take a short nap, wake up at 11:45am, do more research for fielding questions, head for lunch and then look at the skate park a bit before heading for the PC.

between here and the inbetween

Guilty as charged. Went Zouking instead of sleeping. But it was worth the effort and energy. I feel toned! Yes. Dancing is the only sport I can afford to place in between my otherwise seemingly packed life. Random conversations by roadside and telling one guy that his shirt is damn cool. Diabolos Mojo. From abroad too. I should stop looking so young but for tomorrow's PC, I'm going as a boy.

Yummeh.

Horoscope of the Day:
You are quite energized today and you want to make your move before the day slips away. But your drive to get what you need clashes with your sensitivity. You know what you must do, but you might feel uncomfortable being pushy enough to do it. Take a chance; you could be angry at yourself tomorrow if you don't.

Hmm. Shall intepret that later. In the meantime, SLEEP!

I ♥ you all many many. Please take care. I will meet up with you all soon. If life doesn't decide to open its maw and swallow me whole first. HAHA!

passing days that never seem to end

I need to look after myself more. I AM (almost) LOSING MY VOICE! NOOOOO! Kinda fucking amazing. Not many people will remember that I lose a great portion of my voice when I stay up beyond 5 am. Used to happen a lot and I'd just shut up and keep quiet because there isn't a point in talking when you have no voice.

I'm not at work. Heading to the docs. 30bucks for consultation and medication. This one better work and last me in time to come. I sound like a bloody frog now.

Don't know whether to cut or not. From now on, I promise that I am going to get back to taking pictures. Make time for pictures. And also, work on my skills (or the lack of it since it's been a long time since I touched DEOS). Woke up to the sensation of my right arm numb and tingling. Poor blood flow. Wrists been hurting a lot and I think I need to stock back up on Ibuprofen. I sound like a bloody druggy.

They're just painkillers!

Sometimes I believe I just need to shocke myself slowly into realising that there isn't a point and for the hostility to fade. It's not that I don't already now and it's not that I care too much and am so bothered and affected that it's almost bordering on obsessive. I guess I just truly question, why? And not knowing the answer drives me mad. But now that I see it, clearer and without any glasses tinted nor tainted whatsoever, I'm ready.

So all the best. You know who you are.















I'm just emotionally unavailable now. I used to have a heart. Now, I'm not quite sure where it's gone. Some say pathetic, some say sad, some try in desperation to make me believe that I do have it; but let's just put it simply as I'm not ready yet.

And I won't be. Not for a long time to come.

In the meantime, PARTAY!

damn you itch

I showed Ahmad this yesterday.

I miss my long hair sometimes. Just sometimes. Short hair is just so fun.

I love car rides. At night. And soft slow music in the background. Talking, just talking and sorting out all the wayward thoughts in my head. Sometimes I answer my own questions and sometimes, I just seem to ask myself more.

My feet are tingling, the sensation of cramping and numbness. Geh.

I have this stupid itch on my toe that is NOT GOING AWAY. Bloody hell. And its just ONE toe and it irritates the SHIT out of me. GAH! Ok. Shower. Sleep. Snore.

pushing paper pieces

Last night had me looking at old photos of us all. It's almost a year he said. We were seated at the traffic light and smoking our last cigarette before heading back to work.

Embarrassing to be falling asleep during a meeting. FUCK. I need to learn how to stay awake or do things to make sure that I stay awake. Other than that, on an emailing trip and making plans for coffee later with Choi. I am surviving without cigarettes. It has already been 8 hours since I woke up, sans cigarette.

Rui, save me please.

And I need coffee too.

this is YOUR stupidity, not mine

It dawned me. It's very dumb. You want to beat me up because I choose to date girls even when there are many guys? Fuck you la. If that wasn't that big a hint. Stupid. Really. Damn fucking stupid.

been around the world and back

You know what sucks?

It's coming home to remember you have only one stick left.

FARK!

Cleaning up my room I found my assignments from OCU. All the hilarity and nonsense. Should let the Brother read what I did for my Advanced News Gathering. Features Pale Pretense. Fucking funny.

At least my workstation is reasonably clean. I contemplate lighting up now or later. I need to get a dedicated notebook to writing and scribbling thoughts. I wish I was capable of drawing. A lot of things crossing my mind. Earlier on at work I was whining that I regret not having taken up more sports to fill my time. I don't know how to get back now. Same old grouses. Same old.

There are times where remembering just hurts. Then it gets swallowed up by anger and then by resolution. But let's not dwell too much on it and think about androgynous girls. Because I have a thing for androgynous girls. And oh, rugby boys. HELLO NEW ZEALAND ALL BLACKS.

BUT STUPID LA I WASTED MY HOLIDAY BECAUSE OF YOU CAN! NARBEICHAOCHEEBYE!

Ok. Done. :D

pretending to be harrrrdworking

It would appear that at this particular time of your life you are going through a tough time. You are feeling (or have recently felt) miserable and depressed and perhaps you are still feeling that way. Maybe all the trials and tribulations just aren't worth it. Your present anxieties could have been associated with either your 'private' or 'business' life - whatever ... what you really need at this time is to get away from it all, maybe a vacation - alone, or better still, perhaps with someone that you know really cares for you, someone who appreciates you - not for what you have but for who you are. A short vacation may be all you need to afford you the time to recover and to get back to your normal vital self.

You are a leader in every sense of the word. You know where you are going and you know what you need to do in order to get there. You exercise an inherent initiative in overcoming obstacles and difficulties. You either hold, or wish to achieve, a position of authority by means of which full control can be exerted over events.

Many people will consider you egotistical and full of your own self importance. On the surface you could well give this impression and perhaps the reason for this complacent attitude is because at times you indeed have that 'short fuse' and are quick to take offence.

You are feeling really bogged down and extremely stressed. This is perhaps due to the desire for personal independence which has been evading you for some time now. An existing situation or relationship is causing you to be extremely restless and you feel that you are unable to change the situation without co-operation. You are unwilling to expose your vulnerability and therefore you consider it inadvisable to display affection or be over demonstrative. You regard this relationship as a depressing tie, but although you want to be independent and unhampered, you do not want to risk losing anything. All this leads you to react touchily and with impatience, while the urge to get away results in considerable restlessness: your ability to concentrate may suffer.

You would like to break with the present and move on, searching for new conditions and relationships. Your anxiety and stress are results of unfulfilled emotional and perhaps physical needs. You feel that you are not really understood by your nearest and dearest and it is this that prompts you to move on, searching for that so illusive peace of mind.

I don't believe I'm depressed or miserable. It's kinda hard when I am too tired from whatever it is I do in a day to be depressed and miserable. Oh wait, if it's about money then yes. Hmm. In any case, I do want a vacation. Do I really have a short fuse? Hahah. I'd entertain myself more. but I got a call from some PR company and they're gonna invite me for some press conference next week regarding some adventure race. SYKE!

I saw the cutest andro girl ever at Starbucks PS. And she's Kat's friend. *insert huge happy face* I'm glad that she's happier than she was before, than she was ever. We both are. :)

By the time I'm done paying my bills I will be left with 300bucks for the month. Gah. Nevermind. I'd entertain you all more with random shit but I have to pretend to be really hard at work.

silly girls playing grownup games

Over at Marc's and we just finished playing Tower Defence. Ok. The homie is good at it and I suck. Even with the help of em' towers that're SUPPOSED to give me back some life, I still died. Basket. He had twice the amount of life left when I got schooled. Gonna wait for the bugger to finish dinner before I get my prata and head back home.

Now, back to the blogging in bulleted lists.

1. No, did not go for the gig at Arts House. Because work finished late. I was freezing, since it was after all an ICE SKATING competition. Or rather, the results la. And it's cold. Get it? Stay around and watch people skate and freeze to death and OH I found out the name of that cute journalist from ST. Jeanette. Hmm. Must make friends. Seriously.

2. I ♥ The Firefight. It was worth waiting and suffering the agony of a certain band whose vocalist seemed to love the sound of his own voice and hence, shouted/screamed/wailed into it at every opportunable moment. I'm sorry but, you guys really sucked. Even WGB's DKNY could not match the happiness of hearing Firefight. Indeed, indeed.

3. I put back on 1 kg. FUCK!

4. Clubbing with the classmates this Wednesday.

5. Have I mentioned that I really need to get my driver's license? Yes. Many times? Yup. I need my license.

6. Thank you Egan Jeremiah Hwan/Smahon for the tickets to catch Eruption! Or whatever the name of that gig is called.

7. Someday, I wanna head down to HOME club and test out this whole indie dance thing.

I shall go and surf YouTube in the meantime.







P.S Brian Kelleher and Ali Williams from the New Zealand All Blacks are kinda hawt. ;D

off the top of my head

As fast, as quick and as random as blog entries go. First of all. I've turned into a semi-groupie. The Firefight have seriously got me going WHOA! They were right, you're good but not as good as him. Not as creative, not as slick, not as smooth and not as fluid. You have skillz. Yes. But that's about it. Creativity? The kind of talent he has?

Damn boy. You have none of it.

I really really really really love their stuff. Especially the finaly dancey number. Pwnage. Ane watching them literally rock out and having fun got the crowd (and me) going as well.

Pictures later. Now I gotta rush off to Jurong for work. All in all, I had a good time. Damn I need a day off. And I think I ought to go back to blogging in lists.