OF GROWING UP, RELATIONSHIPS AND EVENTUAL MARRIAGE

They say don't get into relationships when you're wrong. Wait till you're much older, then find one whom you'll spend the rest of your life with: ie, marriage. But we argue, if we don't sample things now, how then can we be truly sure that whoever we meet in the future is the one? What's worse, what if there was someone else but we just settled on the first one who came along?

My take on relationships is merely this. It's all part of growing up. Not into being an adult. The term adulthood comes printed whambam when you start working. Responsibilities other than your own placed upon your shoulders. This growing up? Emotional maturity, emotional stability. And when I mean stability, it's finding that balance within you where you don't cross over into extremes.

I've had my fair share of relationships. They don't last long and I suppose, it was all puppy love. But I learnt a lot from each of them, though one of the stupid things was to not learn from the mistakes of what made them all fail. Now I know better and now, following my parent's advice, I'm going to find someone who'll eventually be my husband.

Too young to be thinking about marriage? I am only (or rather, about to be) 22 after all. At my age, people are still having fun and experimenting all that life has to offer. Don't get me wrong, I'm not desperate for a home, a husband and kids. I'm enjoying the freedom I have now, the experiences I get when meeting new people, when trying out new things. Right now, I'm expanding my zone of comfort, gaining the courage and confidence I used to lack so much. And the whole marriage thing? It's sorta like a little happily ever after at the back of my mind. Something I dream of when the biological clock starts ticking and my parents start nagging.

I'm like every other girl, every other you and me who wants happiness. I admit I used to be unsatisfied with a lot of things, that I always wanted more. Pampered, selfish and spoilt. I also learnt that happiness is something that you and only you can be responsible for. You make your own happiness, your partner or anyone else doesn't make it happen for you (though of course it's always a bonus).

It gets lonely when you're single. True. But another thing I learnt, that friends are essential in maintaining sanity and a healthy state of being. This sounds like some teenybopper article but who the hell cares!

So I'd like to get married. But I love my life, my single status and my friends right now. Oh yes, the job too! And this goes out for all the people who've made an impact in my life:

Thank you.

Mere words cannot express the feeling, the depth of emotion and the gratitude that I have towards you guys. Thank you for being a part of my life. And if I have ever wronged you, or said anything to hurt or offend in anyway, I truly truly and deeply apologise.

Here's to stronger bonds and deeper meaning!









♥ Lin